Betrayal. Yes or No?

How does it feels like to adopt feelings for someone?
I believe it's wonderful and magical.

Now, how does it feels like to adopt feelings for someone when you have a fiancee?

I think it feels like crap.

Having feelings for someone other than your fiancee is the same as betraying her.

Sex might not be involved, but it's a relationship that is beyond friendship and beneath love.

You longed to see that person, chat with her and spend time with her as much as possible before you head home and face your fiancee.

How much guilt does one feels when they are in that situation?

Will you feel guilty enough to confess that you have feelings for someone else?

Is it a one-time thing or is it gonna last for a period of time?

One-sided or does both parties feel the same way?

There are so many questions that I have for this particular person.

I wonder where did that courage come from.

To actually have feelings for someone else other than the lady you've proposed to.

Why would I choose the word betray?

Betray means sleeping with that person, you say.

But I don't think that how things work in a relationship.

You can have crushes for someone else.

Yes, you can.

As long as you keep your thoughts simple and you do not cross the line, I don't see anything wrong with it.

But driving "her" to and fro work, having lunch together almost everyday at work and attempting to go on a trip together is beyond the line.

This is the line you need to be wary of.

This is the line you should never cross.

This IS the line.

Physical betrayal is the same as mental betrayal.

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Outdo!

It ain't easy trying to juggle life when you are holding two jobs.

Life = work, love, family, friends and myself.

Not that I'm in need of money, or maybe I am, but I just want to make my life more tiring and exciting.

It's like every time I pick up something new, I feel that I've lived.

Taking knitting for example.

I would say I'm getting better and I kinda like it?

I don't know. Maybe it's because I'm knitting for the man I love.

Maybe it's because I'm only knitting a scarf.

Or maybe it's because I have something to do when I'm watching my favourite sitcoms.

I'm more determined than anyone else to make my life better.

No, it doesn't suck right now, I just wanna live life the way it should be.

Buying impromptu tickets to places I've never been to is such a thrill and that's exactly what I need.

I need thrills and excitements in my life.

I've always think that living is such a chore!

We live to die - what kind of logic is that?!

I don't want to lie on the hospital bed and think that I've never achieved anything in life.

I want to be the person where everyone goes,

"Woah! She have done all those when she was younger! Cool man!"

I am a human.

I am a daughter.

I am a sibling.

I am a friend.

I am a girlfriend.

But above all, I am definitely not someone with a limit. 

I'm here to outdo that and I can do it!

 

 

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Secrets only meant for you.

I have secret words that I keep just for you.
They are thoughts and feelings that I will never reveal on paper, but only whisper in your ears.

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What is a hug?

"A hug is a powerful thing.
It makes us feel wanted, needed and loved all at the same time."



Raising Hope.

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Fight.

I can't remember when was the last time we had a huge fight.
It seems like when all's well for a certain period of time, we feel the need to fight again.
I'm tired of fighting. I've been fighting with people all my life.
All I need is someone whom I can lean on without having the need to put up a strong front.
I don't ask for much. TLC are all that I ask.

I don't need irresponsible actions or words from you.
I have seen and heard enough of those for as long as I have lived.
I really thought you were different. Really.
But it looks like I've made the wrong choice to tear down the wall I've built for years.

Why am I always this fragile when it comes to love?
I love you, but that doesn't meant I can't live without you.
I understand your frustrations, I understand where you come from.
But it's not me that you should vent your frustration on. It's not me.
I'm not the person you should disappoint.
I'm the person that you're supposed to care, dote and love for as long as you live.





I love you, but how much hurt can this love take?

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The Vow

"I vow to help you love life, to always hold you with tenderness, to have the patience that love demands, to speak when words are needed, and to share the silence when they are not, to agree to disagree about red velvet cake, to live within the warmth of your heart, and always call it home."

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Athazagoraphobia.

I don't know if you left me out on purpose or you really don't remember to include me in.
Either way, I know where I stand in your heart.
It's such a shame. I thought we could click.



The feeling of being left out.

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Stop accusing me!

I hate the accusations you guys pinned on me.
Given my character, I'd have retaliated, but I won't.
I have a mother who brought up my siblings and I well.
She have our respect.

You'll never stand a chance to know how it feels like to be respected by me and you'll never know how it feels like to be surrounded by the warmth I've felt over the years in my family.
You've lost that chance the moment you started spreading all the rumours about me.


I did nothing to deserve all those gossips from you gossipers.

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I think I don't understand people.

I don't understand why people fall in love, I don't understand why people get married.
I don't understand why people work, I don't understand why people have emotions.

Most importantly,
I don't understand why people always say that they are poor and they refuse to do anything about it.
Whining to me and borrowing money from me is not a solution.
Honestly, I have had enough.

I have always put others in front of myself.
I have always been helpful towards others even if it means making myself busy over things that doesn't concerns me.
And when things failed, I feel worse than the victim themselves.

My friends envy my life right now.
But I didn't get it easy. I went through stuffs that no one else can imagine.
I fell all the way down to the bottom pit and I pulled myself together.
No one owns my success but me.


I deserve the life I'm leading right now.
I own it all.

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