In than less 24 hours.

The boyf and I are flying off in less than 24 hours. Can't wait to travel with him again! :) 

FML

I don't understand what did I do to make you so upset. It seems like you're always upset for no reason. I merely wanted to bring you folks to a nice dinner. That's all. Why kick up a fuss? It's suffocating to be around you. 

It's my fiance that I'm sad for.

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2013

It's year 2013. I'm never a fan of resolutions, but this time round, I'm gonna make one and hope that I can stick to it. You know, not those sky high kinds, but yeah, realistic ones.

In year 2013, 

I wish to be a better person. 

I wish to be kinder, less vulgar, caring, and most importantly - happy.

I will be more patient, compassionate and accommodating.

Here's to 2012:

You've been great, really. Though there were days where it was rough and all, but it doesn't matter. You can't possibly please all of us everyday. I'm grateful that I wake up every single day in 2012 and I get to go to countries like Taiwan, Australia and Indonesia. And I'd like to say this with utmost gratitude, thank you for ensuring that the people around me are safe and healthy. Cheers!

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Love disappears.

"No matter what, when someone is always there for you, people get too lazy to dress up, get too lazy to go out and share a meal, or even prepare small surprises or gifts for one another. Being lazy isn't a bad thing, but if not enough effort is put into maintain a relationship, then love disappears."

 Is the above true? I don't feel that love has disappeared between my parents. Perhaps it's because of the dates and overseas trip they'll take occasionally. Point is, boyf and I are actually lazy people! We both tend to sleep in whenever we can and I'd sometimes rather stay at home than to head out. Is that a bad thing? Pros and cons, I guess?

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19th ❤

Today is the last twentieth of 2012. I had such an amazing year with you. All the places that we have been to, the staycations, occasions, birthdays, etc. It's true that we've had our fair share of arguments, but we've always managed to get through it together :) It makes us cherish and treasure each other even more.

We may have been busy, but constant texts and phone calls are our daily affair. A text when we are on our way to work, one when we are having lunch and another when we are about to sleep. Who knew these texts would be so important? It tells me that you're safe and eating well, for nothing must happen to you.

I know I've been losing my temper and my patience. I'll try my best to control it and hopefully, change for the better.

I love you, baby :) Thank you for loving me like I'm all you've got.

❤
19th

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Bipolar disorder.

Negative thoughts have been filling me up these couple of months. I seriously do not know where I get all the rage from. It's like I'm always on the verge of being angry and I snap at small little things. And when that happens, the people around me - be it family, boyf or friends - get hurt the most. It has never been my intention(s) to hurt any of them. I just can't control.

Other than the angst in me, I tend to be very emotional and skeptical too. I cry over the smallest and silliest thing and my trust for people are beginning to, well, drop. Not believing whatever people are telling me as I feel that I know the exact truth. Suspecting that people are keeping things from me even though they kept saying no.

Just what the hell is wrong with me?

:(

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And so.. .. ..

I'm back from my mini getaway to Bandung, Indonesia. There's nothing much there in particular. My motive was to get away from the bustling city, with boyf, to visit my Aunt Doris and Andi. It was great seeing them after months! I nearly teared upon seeing them at the airport.

I'm emotional, I know.

I've been thinking a lot while on the trip. About everything in life. And it seems like I can't get an answer to whether I love life or I hate it. I guess I'm just tired. With so many things to handle with at once, I don't know if I'm up to it. I'm really thankful that boyf is always here to render help whenever needed. So thankful.

The kids are starting school soon. It's a new year for them and of course, for me too. Let's just hope the kids can buck up this coming year for better results.

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